Hi,
So I’m back after trying to focus on myself for a little while. I joined karate and I’m loving it. It feels nice to be able just to be with other people and learning something completely new.
However, I’ve noticed that mums drinking is becoming a huge problem and she won’t listen to me.
A few weeks ago we planned to go on a family day out, just to a market 40 mins away. No one goes to the local one anymore as it’s just become abit of a ground for selling bits of crap such as wood and nails. Everyone selling or buying goes to the other one.
Mum was happy to go.
Then the night before she was completely uncontactable. It extended into the morning, her phone was off; she wasn’t at home. I tried multiple times. Me and my sister still went. Sadly the carboot was rained off but the rest of it was open.
Then when mum found out we went she kicked off big time. Her excuse was that she had gotten drunk and was completely out cold. She stayed at her friend’s (my school bullies) house.
The following week we had it planned to go to Meadowhall for a shopping trip. She managed to make this one. Whilst walking around the shops she was peed off and kept asking if we could go for a drink. The answer was always no.
Now cut to last week. I saw a few posts about a protest happening in the city at the weekend. They claimed to be peaceful, but everyone knows they wouldn’t be. I told mum and told her under no circumstances must she go to any pubs in or near the city centre. In fact just stay in, just be safe. She agreed with me and promised she wouldn’t. To be fair I warned quite a few people about it.
I was working at a Lego festival on Saturday, just a one off thing for abit of extra cash (well supposed to be extra, but all went on Lego.)
Riots started in the city centre, luckily the festival was at the university a few miles north from the city centre, only the riot was slowly heading up the main road. My sister kept messaging me every so often to ask if I was safe as was mum. I always was.
I went home as normal and didn’t get caught in anything. I hadn’t really looked at the devastation, but my god it’s bad. I hate to trivialise what’s happened, but the places that were targeted made no sense whatsoever.
I’m not condoling any violence, I just mean that the places that were attacked were ordinary shops with no links to anything these people were protesting about.
The riots were so bad all transport buses and trains were suspended. The only mode of transport was taxis, and well that needs no explanation.
I went to takeaway and I went home. Then I got a message from my other sister to say that mum was in the pub not far from where the protests had taken place. I literally called her and shouted at her. She was acting like it was all okay because it was the pub and “everyone looks after her.”
I went out and forced her to get in the car and go home. We stopped off at Asda quickly and even they were putting their shutters down because they were expecting to be attacked.
In the car mum told me that multiple people had told her off for going and she didn’t listen. She just didn’t think she should stop having to have a good time and be forced to sit in her flat bored.
Now cut to tonight and she’s back in the pub again. Nothing has happened here all day, but there is a major unease everywhere.
I just can’t keep doing this anymore she doesn’t listen.
