Thank you for your responses.
Not pushing anything unless it would help someone here (though ofcourse not yet).
Though the oils themselves do seem to have helped incredibly (Me and my brother researched upon diagnosis, and a series of incidents led us to oil maker who has a proven record of sorts).
Even the doctors are surprised at my mums dramatic improvement- it seems. We/Me are much less panicked despite what will happen on Monday.
It’s such a tricky situation. My mum I love so dearly…and have detached somewhat from the situation today, have to be strong. I mean I really love her so much…she was very upset at times today. No huge upsets today on a personal level thus far. I do need to look after myself. Mum was pretty clingy today bless her ![:blush: :blush:](https://emoji.discourse-cdn.com/twitter/blush.png?v=12)
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Today was another interesting day. The domestic situation in our house remains a situation which is well- just messed up at times.
In summary, the house remains incomplete/unfurnished in parts my dad (possible narcissist- has issues, though retains some amazing traits) despite the situation at hand refused to hire help and finally get it complete and has nowhere near completed the decoration at hand- as he promised he would on countless occasions.
And his priorities are getting the living room to his ‘perfectionist standards’. Very hurtful and frustrating for mum in particular at times. The promises were very different…
On the same note, I also believe this has been a long time coming to a degree- something had to give, given the poor relations in our household. P
The situation at home has been the case on and off for years. My dad can be seen as being a possible narcissist and was emotionally abusive for sustained periods. This resulted in a self imposed silence between him v myself/mum for long periods…also this resulted in me and mum taking numerous holidays without him. And myself travelling solo for large periods.
I believe given how bad the abuse, control had got by dad at times towards mum and myself…I honestly believe the universe/god wanted to see some change. Without sounding like the victim.
I feel things are still improving…some of the scenes where we started behaving as a family again would simply not have emerged without the diagnosis.
Rambling ![:blush: :blush:](https://emoji.discourse-cdn.com/twitter/blush.png?v=12)
Back to today.
Me and mum have spent all day together like most days. Mainly upstairs in my room given the mess downstairs - my dad and uncle attempt to get the living room in order for Monday. Still not sure where me, we will end up. Her chemo will be administered initially at the Christie and then a pump taken home,-whereby on the district nurse will come remove it on the 3rd day.
Still feels so surreal…
Mum has taken the oils like a boss as she has been doing (I take about 30-45mins to prepare all pills in morning). A combination of the cannabis rso oil and CBD oil, I put into a vegan shell capsules. 3 times a day.
Out of the prescribed pills from the Hospital, the pancreatin enzyme and omniprazole are the ones I prepare. Yes no sickness, no major digestion issues, this wasn’t the case upon diagnosis, she was in dire pain, constantly sick, huge digestion issues…hence my faith in the oils…
Currently at my brothers, my mum started feeling really chlostrophobic at times. We nipped out earlier but only briefly.
A hectic but lovely environment…mum gets to spend some time with her grandchildren. And me with my dear brother and his family.
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