Spent today with her best friend reminicing and laughing.
So glad that my son is still here. Have been randomly crying.
I loved my Mother and will really miss her.
I am so glad that her last few days in hospital were comfortable and glad that she and her best friend had some long and lucid conversations.during which she sent her love to my brother and I.
Jaqueline
Sending you some virtual hugs, your mother has been so lucky having you care for her right up to the end, I am sure you will find comfort in this in the days ahead. My condolences to you and your family.
(((HUGS))) Jacqueline. You have been a wonderful caring daughter. No one could wish for better.
The next few weeks will be challenging in a different way. Just ask if there is anything you are not sure of.
Thinking of you Jacqueline. (((( Hugs))))
Sorry to hear your news
So sorry, but also so pleased you have both got release.
We are here for you going forward too, pop back whenever you need
āALL WE CAN DOā
No words can comfort all we can do
Is share your North face route with you.
No one can take your pain away
Or cut bereavementās journey short.
Perhaps you would not want them to
Your grief is all thatās left to you
Of your loved one who could not stay.
All we can do is walk with you
And try to match our steps to yours.
Just keep on walking day by day.
But let us share that cold road too
To walk a little way with you
( by Mary Sheepshanks)
Thank you Henrietta, Bowlingbun, pet, nicholas and Mrs Average. I am so greatful to have had these last two years caring for Mother. Amble that poem is lovely. Many thanks.
Thoughts and prayers with you
x x
Thinking of you Jaqueline and sending (((hugs)))).
Melly1
Thank you rosemary and melly. Still missing her a lot. Early days.
I am so sad to hear your news Jacqueline. take care. x
Jacqueline, we are truly sorry to hear of your loss. Our condolences to you and your family.
Jaqueline
Iām sorry for your loss and I know what youāre going through as I lost my mother too. Try to keep herself busy and donāt worry about crying. If you have any problems sleeping see a local GP. From our experience ill be little things youāre missing most. Take heart that this community set in a Best wishes to you.
Thank you susie q and robertā¦
I have been crying most of the day today. Vicer coming over tomorrow to discuss the service.
It really is the little things like feeding the birds and telling her about it and just those silly jokes and laughing at something on the telly ā¦
I find it ery hard to motivate myself to do things. Oh well. One hour at a time. Thank God that I have the dogs and small pets to care for.
This forum is a good place to chat and ask questions.
Do house clearence places pay for the stuff they take or do you pay them to take it?
Thatās impossible to answer Jacqueline. Are you emptying the whole house, or just stuff you donāt want anymore?
Is it sellable, or just for the tip?
Jaqueline, there is NO rush - take all the time you need. I agree the little things are the āworstā in a way. I found my mumās last tube of handcremeā¦I broke down totally. She would never use it againā¦
Re house clearance - check with charities first. ie, if the commercial companies want to charge you!
be careful what you get rid ofā¦is there any time pressure on you? What is happening to your mumās house in the end?
I hope the service goes well - these days ministers are usually very flexible about designing them around what makes emotional and spiritual sense to the mourners.
There are many websites with some lovely poems and readings. If you browse (and you will weep, I promise youā¦) you may find ājustā the things that really resonate with you and your mumā¦
(PS - donāt know whether this will resonate with you, but I wrote my mum a letter, telling her all the thigns I felt about her, and it helped me ālet her go from this lifeāā¦but keep her always always always in my heartā)(where she still isā¦)
Kindest wishes at this time, Jenny
Thank you Jenny. I cancelled the house clearence people. I was rushing myself too much. Have been slowly going through her things and been wearing some of her clothes (aw).
Got to chose funeral music today. Feel utterly exhausted but ok. A bit worried about the future. Do I stay round here or move back to Wales. Also will have to sell this house at some point as half of it is now my brothers.
Oh well. Tomorrow I may feel all lively esp as my son is home for the weekend snd the funeral on Tuesday.
Donāt make any big decisions for at least a year, ideally two. I was totally irrational after my OH died suddenly, I hated everything in my cottage, which we lovingly restored from a wreck together, in 1976-7. I could have sold the house, the steam engines, everything. I just did not know what to do for the best. Now Iām settled again, surrounded by things we did lovingly together.
I know Jenny and I see things differently, but itās OK to get rid of things you know you will never EVER need, ancient worn out things first. I tried to find a āgoodā home for things I would never want, such as my husbandās work shirts, all clean and lovingly ironed, then given to the Salvation Army in Bournemouth, so Iād never see anyone wearing them.
I still have a few of his things which were my very favourites, tucked away in my wardrobe.
Everyone is different Jaqueline, I am in the same boat as you as my brother owns half the house but hasnāt lived here for 40 years. I had to be quite practical but took the first 3 months doing paperwork and sorting out personal possessions. The next six months I got the decorators in and updated the house and now I have 2 lodgers to keep things ticking over. I am still torn 12 months on as to whether to stay or go but for the next 12 months I will probably stay to recoup the decorating expenses. If I can ever get to the stage of being āin profitā and being able to save and pay my way each month I can think again about moving as I would love 100% of somewhere. I still canāt decide 12 months on whether it is better to have 50% of my one and only home or 100% of a tiddly home somewhere that is totally mine with a clean slate.
I think I can safely say that if I had thrown in teh towel and moved immediately I would always have regretted not trying to find a way to stay.
My next focus for the coming year is job related. I need to find out how much work I can fit in and cope with, what I can potentially earn and then in 12 months time I will look at property again and see what is viable and realistic.