I’m a lone carer for my father who is dying. I have help Palliative Care, Macmillan came out yesterday evening and a carer, but ultimately I’m here with him alone. It’s breaking my heart, but I’ve been strong and will remain so for his sake not mine.
I’ve sacrificed too much what with Covid, I isolated then gave up my job.
Just scared and finding it hard to keep my emotions together.
Apologies if I’m rambling but needed to get things off my chest.
Sorry to hear your father is so ill. I think the hours and days must feel so long. But you have some precious time left with your father. You have every right to feel scared! There are many emotions and some can make no sense. But they are real and totally normal. From feeling in control and swinging out of control. These are all normal feelings. And just go with the flow. If you feel like screaming and crying just do it. It will help to release some of the tension.
You say …
have help Palliative Care, Macmillan came out yesterday evening and a carer
If you feel this isn’t enough which doesn’t sound it to me. Please make a phone call and have a discussion for more calls.
Please keep posting as there are no judgements here.