i have been married to my wife who has Aspergers and ocd, my wifes meltdowns have become a major issue recently when ever she has a meltdown she screams so loud mostly very late at night says hurtful things to me threatens to leave me all the time. a litttle over a year ago i had a breakdown i was drinking too much (i have since quit drinking) i was using that as a way of coping with the lack of support from the mental health department and even her own mum. one night i totally lost control i was very drunk we got into a argument that night and she left and i tried to end my life with pills. i was very very depressed at the time and i dont feel good about it at all. since then my marriage has been in dia straits. i have explained to my wife that it was not her fault and that i was sorry for the way i acted that night, i quit drinking as i know drinking was becoming a issue in my life. it seems that nothing i do is good enough she refuses to except that i truely am sorry for what happened.
i love my wife more than anything but i feel like im just her carer now as there is no affection left in our relationship i am struggling with my own health issues right now and am awaiting surgery what the hell am i ment to do when the person you love just treats me like a verbal punching bag and blames everything on me without or at least it seems like no regard for how it effects me. i hate to say this but i feel alot of resentment for her right now, she does not seem to care about how much physical pain i am in daily, only her own sleep issues matter. also she lost her nan last year that she is struggling to cope with all my wife does is talk about dying asks me to kill her all the time. i am confused all the time i just dont know what to do anymore.