Hi @Pipsqueak01 Oh boy I know how you feel! I have been f/t carer for my husband for the last two years or so after he had a fairly minor stroke (is ANY stroke really minor?) then followed a cascade of other health issues, prostate cancer, retinal haemorrhage requiring eye surgery, cardiac problems, respiratory issues, mobility problems… Now blackouts. Yep it all leaves me fed up and tired - even when I DO manage some sleep.
The only thing I do is get breaks when walking the dog. An hour before G gets up and similar in the afternoon. We’ve lost many of our friends and there are days when we dont see anyone to talk to.
I have to try to stay cheerful or he gets upset - not sure if/how I do it. I lose myself in writing and have created a world on my word processor! That’s a great escape.
As you say - men are not to feel emotions or have feelings - however the truth is we DO have emotions and feelings and as much as we try to hide them they find their way out. It nothing to be ashamed of or afraid of as if you bottle them up for too long the top suddenly pops off the bottle and whats inside fizzes all over the place.
Have you spoken to you GP about this? I’d recommend doing so. Hopefully you are registered as a Carer with GP too. Some say this hasnt helped but I find it does. Also your local Carers Support Service should be able to direct you to a listening service so you can unload.
However, on here you can unload; vent; moan; scream and shout and no one will take offence as we KNOW what its like.
If you look around on here you’ll find Roll Call thread - https://forum.carersuk.org/t/roll-call-february-2024/124457/387
which is where many of us chat about our days, our problems, worries, share support and generally have a chat. Its a lovely supportive place and we have all, at one time or another, needed to vent or accept support.
I note Shelly has just posted a reply too. There will be others who I am sure will follow up with comments and advice. As a Care Worker I would expect your employer to have something in place to provide backup for you.
Not sure if any of this starts to help, but we are here for you - the old saying “You are NOT alone”