We have had a bad day today. Husband is very low and mourning for all the things he can’t do since his stroke in November. I try my best but sometimes it doesn’t work.
I feel absolutely exhausted and even though I have not dropped my personal hygiene I feel really grubby and scruffy. My friend dropped something off here yesterday and she looked so happy, relaxed and smart. I think I look like an old rag bag. I just don’t feel clean somehow.
I have to go and do my weekly shop tomorrow (my only outing now) and will put on some decent clothes but will still feel scruffy like last week.
Twice recently I have fallen asleep in the same room while physios and speech therapists have been working with my husband.
I got up at 7. I did so much that by 1pm I sat down and fell asleep. About 4.30 I fell asleep again. I just go out like a light.
This is my 3rd role as a carer and is wearing me out.
@penny I know that feeling. I always used to shower every day and now it is alternate days at the most. I’ve let what I wear drop down to joggers and t’s instead of shirts and smart trousers of fresh jeans. Its manly because I am so tired I can’t be bothered to make the effort. If people see me in trousers and shirt they comment these days and that is a bit of a jolt.
Not sure what to say, because I too have not let personal hygiene slip (apart from DAILY showering) but I’m constantly washing hands and keeping things clean.
Today has been the worst day as I exploded at G and I am trying not to feel guilty about it as I feel it WAS justified.
Ah well he is in bed now and I can get some rest.
Know what you mean about 7am til 1pm then need a rest. I have been falling asleep by7pm most evenings and even then G doesnt get it that I am completely drained and HAVE to wake up to get him to bed!!!
Made a decision about my writing today so I feel good about that. Let’s both look for the small victories and positives in our lives and we can feel good about that at least.
@Penny….please don’t beat yourself up, both you and your husband are going through a lot at the moment. It’s no wonder you feel shattered. We’re all here for you.
Maybe PLAN to have an afternoon nap?
It would be more surprising if you felt anything other than shattered.
A brave face only lasts so long. Do you have any carers/cleaners to share the load with?
How is the garden? As you may remember mine was flattened, borders gone but easy to manage.