Me and my Gf /Ex of 13 years knowing her on and off relationship. been going through a lot past few years . She was involved in multiple car crash and wrecks that result in total loss. Since then, She been acting real Strange with delusion and paranoia , and distortion of thoughts. First time I saw her mental breakdown, she broke all my items inside I don’t know why, she went and be homeless have the year even when I ask her to take the place she refuses.
She got back on her feet with a job got her place , then Covid happen, she went into panic left the job because she claim people came to the job were being sent after her . She did started driving Uber etc . Because couldn’t make ends meet she ask me to move back in with her the minutes I was going to because I delay , a day she went to another state to be with her cousin and that didn’t work out she then went to tell me she coming back to me . Wasn’t my term I told her we need to see the doctor and therapy. She always refuses but I always give her her ways .
Always on overload even when I try to help financially especially she at times get irate and anger and in rage.
One night she came home drunk , irate saying some nasty things to me , I’m not real I’m fake this whole place is not real , this is trap , I’ve been here before etc … I need to level up etc … she become angry and mad and furious punching me while I try hood her to come down she wanted to get behind the wheel and go drive and I try to stop her. When she came down I explain to her and she said I was lying and making this up.
Fast forward 2 days later she didn’t come home , I got a call she want being held at the hospital she got into a big scuffle with the officers and they had to give her a sedative and held her in for weeks
While in the process she was diagnose with PTSD and when she got out she literally said I set the whole thing up and I beat her up and drop at the hospital because last she remember she was home and saw someone drag her out the car to beat her up. Never saw her that day .
This has broke me down sad and I explain things to her she said it’s all
Made up even the police report .
I stick around as much as possible tryna help every day it was physically and verbal abuse she lost trust in me and we just started become more distance and distance . At time we had good days where we laugh talk etc … she eventual said she didn’t feel safe , around me and I try so much to get her to believe that I was being genuine honest with her and what happen to her , I didn’t had anything to do with it .
She left , say she wasn’t available emotional for a relationship even when I told her it’s cool I only concern about you well being
She refusing therapy and never took the medicine they give her.
I couldn’t it force her to stay I just let her go
I didn’t want to enable her , but I don’t know if I should continue to check up on her
Because she did told me forget her existence
she has no family she talk to she always running away from facing her problems , all her closes friend don’t talk anymore because she had said some hurtful things to them and denies she said those things and they were making things up in her . She keep asking me to borrow money I told her no but days letter I decided to send her money on her account she was furious passive aggressive . Then
Text me days letter to say sorry she let her anger get best for her .
She pushes everyone away I was one still around she ended running away I stick to it all yet gain nothing after all but stressor . My own mental health . As been effected trying to refocus on …
I don’t know if I should text her to make sure she good or just keep going and don’t reach out unless she reaches out .
She also talk suicide at times say she serve light and dark and said they use her blood to heal people they still from her , she’s trying to wear a mask. I want to talk to someone about all this I know it’s a lot sorry. I need all advice
Again sorry for lost post I’m about to start therapy soon