Hello everyone, my Gran was 106 so had a full life, although she’s had so many health problems in the last few months.
She had to be admitted into St Mary’s hospital 3 weeks ago, but came back home last Thursday in a terrible state, she could barely talk, over the weekend she faded and passed away Monday morning…and now im lonely, lost, in her home that she was the council tenant and i was getting carers benefits which is what i lived on, and i have nowhere else to go…its only a matter of time before im evicted.
Oh, did I mention ive suffered from anxiety most of my life.
She was my life and now im completely done in.
Sorry for whining but i just had to get this off my chest.
Yes, im very lucky to have help with these things. Im going to get the funeral out the way first then I’ll tackle the other stuff, its just things have been terrible this week and everything got on top of me.
I know how hard this is. I found my husband dead in bed.
Nothing prepares you for the death of a loved one, whatever age.
Between now and the funeral, just do whatever you MUST do.
Leave everything else until afterwards.
Put all the papers in a lever arch file, so they don’t keep looking at you, there will be time enough later.
Just keep telling yourself “I am NOT going to panic”. If you feel the need to do something make a list of jobs to sort out, but don’t worry if you feel too exhausted be kind to yourself. Try to go for a short walk every day. I cried buckets every evening. Sort out what you are going to wear for the funeral, then if your suit needs to go to the cleaners, there is time. Do your shoes need a polish, etc. Then order a book from eBay called Starting Again by Sarah Litvinoff. It really helped me.