my partner of 3 years, whom i’ve officially cared for for the last 2, suffers from aspergers and is an alcoholic, more
recently so as he is fighting in court with his manipulative ex for access to see his young daughter, now living over 100 miles away.
i too suffer from anxiety and depression myself in varying degrees particularly as i am a cancer survivor of 4 years, which took
saved my life but took away my sense of accomplishment at work (had to leave my job) self worth and belief. after quite (and yet another) nasty argument my partner has left for an undisclosed time to his parents house in another city, seeming very cold and distant before he left even though my heart was breaking at the state of where we are lately with each other and i was very very tearful. i find i am feeling very lost and on my own.
at the moment i do feel very broken down by everything. he does drink an awful lot and will not face the fact that he has definite problem, i have seen him in some horrible states in the past. he becomes very aggressive verbally and insulting if a discussion takes a wrong turn, no matter how i word my views, i end up losing my tempter too in the end and it doesn’t end well. we both like a drink but my awareness of when to stop is much MUCH better than his. i cannot stop him buying it, when he is an absolute foul mood, he will drink until he drops.
i am by nature a very caring and loving person, and forgiving. but i had to type out how i’m feeling and wonder if anyone
else has a partner with aspergers and alcoholism. i don’t know anyone anywhere who is dealing with this kind of relationship,
my family are far away and worriers, i cannot put this on their plate any more than i have, which they don’t really understand, other than saying he is making me ill and driving me insane with the frustration of dealing with him and all that goes with him.
it’s been said of me that ‘my spark has gone’ when i’m usuallly a very outgoing and humourous person, that person isn’t really
there any more. i don’t have any friends in town who i can share this with. i have rang the samaritans on occasion, which is unbelievable to me that i needed to do that.
i am so very sad that i fear i may have to end it, due to financial ties together here, i would have to leave and go… don’t know where.
thank you for reading, i would appreciate any messages on this subject and how it is/was for you.