Hi!
I’ve come here because I needed a rant and frankly I don’t think anyone else gets it unless you’re in similar shoes so here we are.
I’m 23 have lovely bubbly 20 month-year-old 6 months pregnant and full-time carer for my mother in law who needs 24/7 care diagnosed with vascular dementia.
Today I just don’t know if the hormones or I’m just so fed up I feel so bad on both my child and mother I can never take him baby group very rarely as my husband works full time and I can’t leave mum alone in the house, I just feel
So bad on him I just want to spend a day at the zoo or something I always feel guilty that I can’t leave the house and just simply take him park. We practically have no support no one ever sits in for us to go out and my husband does not like the idea of rest bite so that’s out the window. I feel like I’m losing patience with his mum and it’s not her fault and it makes me feel bad. I dread to think how it’s gonna be with an extra little human. I’ve got mum guilt and carer guilt I suppose. Every time I try to talk to my husband he just sees I as I’m complaining about his mum and doesn’t really take it on board just leaves for work.
I was just asking then if please can organise 1-2 days rest bite for next month a week so I can spend some time with my toddler as there are lots on because it’s holidays and take him out and I want him to come as well but he doesn’t even want to! Because he doesn’t want to leave mum in rest bite for a day. I want a family day out and quality time before baby number two arrives (due in October) I just some quality time with my little boy and him! But I got nowhere no where I just feel so bad the more I complain the more guilty I feel too. Like I know it’s not his mum’s fault I don’t want to feel like I’m neglecting her but I also have a child at very demanding age.
Urgh sorry for the rant I just feel like crying because I’m just so fed up, none of his family come and helps me they haven’t been around for 3 weeks.
I just here every day alone indoors.